trying really hard not to get bummed out but failing miserably
well this sucks
these next recordings i am putting everything i got into. no “good enough”s. i need to prove to myself that the things i hear in my head can sound good in real life. I need to make something great. I’m putting my last little bit of trust into james because i know that he has something special and i just hope he likes me enough to put what he’s got into this too. after this, i’ll know if i should keep going with this or not. no good enough’s. no good enough’s.
i care about a lot of people a lot more than i think they care about me
thanks for the kind words. I’m just in a rut currently, trying to keep my head up
having a lot of anxiety again over this stupid band i should honestly give up because im never going to get anywhere. people are always gonna say they’ll be there and will help me but i have seen nothing but empty words from everyone i have talked to. everyone is in it for themselves. it’s hard to keep going when you’re the only one that gives a shit
tired of feeling worthless tired of feeling alone tired of empty words tired of going nowhere tired of being anxious tired of never being where i want to be man i’m just fucking tired